Thursday, June 05, 2008

I love you hamham >.<" forever...

I am in love >.<"
With my cute hamham >.<"

There is so much things i wanna tell you...
but... it is just too much...
cus... my love for you is infinity >.<"

haha love you always my dear >.<"
*muacks~*

Posted at
11:09 PM
My life.
Lib's life.
Pika~!

Wednesday, June 04, 2008

I miss her...

To my dearest hamham,
i want you to be by my side... all the time...
but i just don't have the courage to say it...
all i can do it to hide here and say it...
well you wont be reading it either... thats the reason why i am able to post my feelings here...
I know...
You have to live you life...
different from mine...
i'm just a tiny little part of your life...
and you are too busy to have time for me...

i just wanna tell you...
you are not tiny little bits of my life...
you are my life...

but...
haiz...
facts are just too hard to accept...
haiz...

Love,
your dearest pika...

Haiz...
Why does it have an itchy feeling in your heart when you miss someone?
And why does it start to hurt when you miss someone so much?

Why does something emotional able to brought out physical feelings?

So this is what Humans call it, emotions?

I miss her...
so much...
that it really hurt deep down my heart...
Haiz...
My life will just be uneasy without able to contact her...

Her phone is out of money... she can't sms me...
the only way we can contact now is thru msn...

Today, was chatting with her...
Yea i am someone who doesn't really enjoy movie...
But well for her, i watch the show 200 pound cus she told me to watch with her...
it all for her... cus it will make me have the feeling that she is with me...

but... when i was watching halfway... in msn... she told me...
she is going out... then... just like that and went out...
didnt even wait for my reply...

i was sad...
although i know she didn't meant it but...
i cant help but have the feeling that she throw me oneside...

haiz...

i... really want her... to be by my side... all the time...

haiz...
maybe...
i think a little too much...
maybe...
humans need to rely on oneself...
maybe...
"rely" isnt even suppose to be a word use by humans...


Yea...
I am a loner...
I wish no one to disturb me or interfere with me... whatever i am doing...
i also want to be left alone... i don't wish for others to bother me...
i just want to do my own things...

But... all except for her...
i want her to be with me...
i want her to disturb me and interfere me... i want her to be with me whatever i am doing...
i want to be left alone with her... yes just her...
all i wish for...
is her to be with me...

i dunno...
is she thinking the same or not...
or does she just treat me as just another god brother... like how i treat my other god sis...

i feel like giving up...
going back into my solitude past and not knowing how to love for anyone...
it really hurt...
and affecting me... too much...
but...
i can't give up too... for i love her too much...
and also... it her love that keep me going...
keeping me cheerful... and happy... forgetting about my others worries...
haiz...




yea...
people will just say...
I'm just a kid.

Posted at
7:30 PM
My life.
Lib's life.
Pika~!

Tuesday, June 03, 2008

Mans fear for Love/marriage

Quote from this thread.

"He concluded that most men were not afraid of marriage -- but they were afraid of a bad marriage."
How true lol

"Weisman said U.S. figures showed that in 1980 about 6 percent of men aged in their early 40s had never married but this number had now risen to 17 percent."
"about half of them said the situation that scared them most was marrying the wrong person."

"It's so important to these men to get it right. My best advice to single women after bachelors is to be patient. If you're in a hurry to get married you'll be frustrated," he said."
ya ya be patient to us! >.<"

"Weisman also found that financial issues, both positive and negative, played a large part in men's fear of commitment."
not for me... o.o

"Those with little money said they would have nothing to offer a partner, with some suffering self-esteem issues and withdrawing from the dating pool," said Weisman, an engineer-turned-author with two books now published.
"While those who are financially sound were terrified what a bad divorce could do to them."

Lol

Posted at
8:28 PM
My life.
Lib's life.
Pika~!

Monday, June 02, 2008

Typical day... Monday...

Well just another typical day... like other day...

Nothing much happen today...
it just like a robot... on auto mode... so dead...

sch
home
sleep...

haiz...
such life...
sux...

Can my life plz be spice up more?

Posted at
10:55 PM
My life.
Lib's life.
Pika~!

Sunday, June 01, 2008

My dearest sister...

The night is,
something I use to fear...
It darken my sight,
and make my world blur...
However the stars,
make you seems so near...
For it link,
your heart and my heart here...

Sitting by the window,
I think of you...
Stars in sky,
I could only see a few...
Missing you is,
not something new...
As I has always,
been loving you...

A promise I made,
to love you always...
This love we share,
can never be replace...
Never would I,
forget you a day...
Another promise I made
to miss you everyday...

A sky of star,
reminds our of time together...
I'll miss and love you,
maximum and forever...
Nothing can compare,
when we have each other...
I'll love you always,
my dearest sister...

>.<"

Posted at
10:50 PM
My life.
Lib's life.
Pika~!

Power to hurt you...

"Loving someone... Is giving them the power to hurt you..."

lol

This is so true...
Which is why, I dare not to love again...
>.<"

Posted at
1:05 AM
My life.
Lib's life.
Pika~!