Friday, February 29, 2008

Today is sad...

Sad...
today...

i am sad...
and tired...

Posted at
6:33 PM
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Lib's life.
Pika~!

Peaceful...

I didnt laugh today...
i didnt frown today...

I isn't happy today...
I isn't sad today...

I am just...
feeling so peaceful feeling nothing...

^^

Posted at
12:14 AM
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Pika~!

Wednesday, February 27, 2008

Wisdom

Ecclesiastes

Chapter 7 verse 3
"Sorrow is better then laughter, because a sad face is good for heart."
I don't really understand this verse at first...
Till I ask Rachel...
Sorrow is better then laughter is because sorrows bring you experience in thing while laughter don't...
And a sad face is good of heart... Sorrow brings a sad face... that explain it all...
In other words... gaining Wisdom is good for us...
I think this is what this verse is trying to say...

Chapter 1 verse 18
"For with much wisdom comes much sorrow; the more knowledge, the more grief"
My interested on Ecclesiastes begins when I saw this verse...
This verse is just so true...

I know why a bible is called a bible...
But...
I too finally understand why a bible is called a bible...

Posted at
10:11 PM
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Lib's life.
Pika~!

Dreams are for weaklings

Yes...
Dreams are for weaklings...

Why dream, when you can instead set it as goals?

Reality...
wake up from dreams...

Posted at
8:59 PM
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Lib's life.
Pika~!

Monday, February 25, 2008

my old times... when i broke down...

Yes.
And this time, i am gonna buck up already...

i just need to get back to the path of no return...
the path of craziness...
the path of darkness...
the path of death...

no lah lol jus joking haha...
i just need to get back to the old path of craziness nia...
where i just freaking endure freaking sufferings...


yes i once broke down as i was jus too mentally defeated...
and... that kind of feeling is really scary...
yea... i don't even have a clear mind why am i doing such things...

but then, the 'such things' was just purely Nothing stare blankly...
nothing but just fear from nowhere came to me...

yea... it was last year...
it was way before i created SC...
everything just falls...
it isn't stress that eaten me...

but...
emotionally tired...
tired of the enduring...

and... the path of craziness is all about enduring...

i still remembered those times whereby nothing really seems a problem to me in enduring...

sleep for a few hours daily...
working in the night...
school in the morning...
cca in the afternoon...
finding time for her...

just overwhelming of things to do...
and...
i just couldn't endure the same old schedule again and again...

i was totally a no lifer...
no friend outings...
no games...
no sort of other entertainment...

i didn't even have much chances to meet her...
i miss her... a lot... all the time...

but, she didn't really support me...
i understand...
she has also endure our distance relationship for a very long time...
then...
we broke off...

it was then i an impact hit on another impact onto me...
i just couldn't take it anymore...
i get a lot of MC... again and again...
Didn't go for work...
Didn't went to school...

i just dunno what to do with my life...
i was sad...
i was alone...

no one understand me...
my family? they won't freaking bother...
i am no lifer at that time...
i can go without seeing my family for weeks...
although we are at the same house together at times... but, different rooms...

Friends?
How can a no lifer have friends?

i just stay at home...
and cried sometimes without knowing why...
i can't be bother with my life anymore...

i just wanna die...
i wanna this world to end...

no one understands me...
no one understand how empty i felt about this world...

seriously...
no one...
no one even realise what happen to me...

i just broke down...
like that...

yea...
til today...
although i am really able to hide this feeling from others...
still...
it live deep inside me...

i just wanted to do nothing...
totally nothing...

this affected me way too much...
til it cause me to be totally nv serious in anything i do...
i forget about this thing call enduring and just give up...

yes...
til now i am like that...

i wanted my past back...
i wanted my spirit back...
i wanted to fight...

yes...
i want to fight and endure...

why can't i just look on the bright side?
i had enuf...
i really dunno what i should do...

i seriously hate this life...
i am tired of enduring...

i kept thinking...
when will death finally visit me...

i am just tired...
of life...

Posted at
6:31 PM
My life.
Lib's life.
Pika~!

Saturday, February 23, 2008

i am feeling down...

yes...
i am feeling down...
very very down...

i need my ciggs...
i want them...
but i can't...
i need to quit...

i am left with nothing to do now...
sleep?
i have slept for the whole of today...

haiz...
addiction spice life up...
i dun have any addiction now...
nothing...
crap...

feeling really down...
i need a new addiction...
a healthy one...

cheers

Posted at
11:47 PM
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Lib's life.
Pika~!

Tuesday, February 19, 2008

i change my song on blog liao!!

"The day you went away"

Verse 1
Well I wonder could it be
When I was dreaming 'bout you baby
You were dreaming of me
Call me crazy, call me blind
To still be suffering is stupid after all of this time

Pre-chorus 1
Did I lose my love to someone better
And does she love you like I do
I do, you know I really really do

Chorus
Well hey
So much I need to say
Been lonely since the day
The day you went away
So sad but true
For me there's only you
Been crying since the day
The day you went away

Verse 2
I remember date and time
September twenty second
Sunday twenty five after nine

In the doorway with your case
No longer shouting at each other
There were tears on our faces

Pre-chorus 2
And we were letting go of something special
Something we'll never have again
I know, I guess I really really know

Chorus
The day you went away
The day you went away

Pre-chorus 1
Chorus

Bridge
Why do we never know what we've got 'til it's gone
How could I carry on
The day you went away
Cause I've been missing you so much I have to say
Been crying since the day
The day you went away

The day you went away
The day you went away

Posted at
10:06 PM
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Pika~!

ohh man...

ohh man...
school today sux man...
i dunno what teacher talking sia...
gosh...
:(

Posted at
6:21 PM
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Lib's life.
Pika~!

Monday, February 18, 2008

It's time...

I'm finally get rid of the holiday mood...
as holiday period is finally over...

I am already awaken...
i am already preparing...

for...
this year finals rush...
O's

I've already forget about games...
I've already forget about her...
I've already forget about the sticks...

I will only remembered,
studies from now onwards...

awaken...
and preparing...
for the last study chiong in after june...

i have only one wish now...
i dun wanna my engine to break down again...

Dear lord...
plz help me...
to endure this...
i dun wanna break down again this year...
like what gotten last year...

Cheers...

Posted at
11:04 PM
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Lib's life.
Pika~!

Sunday, February 17, 2008

sick again...

haiz i'm sick again...
sux man...

i think it's due to the sentosa outing...
it was freaking hot and cold at different times...
Went into the icy cold sea when i am bloody hot...
went out of the sea and wind blow and make me colder...
then start to get hot again into the everlasting icy cold water...
then went up again and blow wind blow...

it's no wonder that i got my fever back...

haiz...
tml MUST go school...
i have miss enuf of things...

15 points.
Yes natalie i will get that!
And CoreBooster, i will get it and you will cook for me!!! whakaka!

lol...
went to natalie house today...
fun ^^
and i realise my that expensive shoe was stolen :( darn that whoever...
then i wear my mac shoe there -.-"

yea today i didnt win or lose... haha
>.<"
hmm then feeling sick when taking taxi home with turbie, seoti and yuki...
darn...
i reach lot 1 then i found out that the shops are all close man...
then went home, and take temp, fever.

Vomited just now... dunno why... nothing much came out though lol...
haiz...
i gonna start doing my compo now...
haiz...
see ya...

Posted at
11:20 PM
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Lib's life.
Pika~!

Friday, February 15, 2008

Control.

"Hey hey bastard...
you are letting your emotion controlling you again...

control them back...
show no emotions...
emotion are just something which is create by ourself...
we thus can eliminate it til its extinction...

be emotionless man...
control them...
or be controlled.

Cheers~"

Posted at
8:23 PM
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Lib's life.
Pika~!

Wednesday, February 13, 2008

Sick...

What a blardy wrong day to sick...
shuld have sick like next week or something...
zzz
haiz...
:(

Posted at
11:46 AM
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Pika~!

Sunday, February 10, 2008

CNY

Cheers~

Cny has came...
sunday went to makan reunion dinner...
monday school...
tuesday school...

wednesday... HALF DAY!!! whakaka~
then went to reunion dinner on mother side...
lol
after that come home...
DOTA~
keke >.<"

thursday... went to bai nian...
same thing every year... boring...

friday, went to friends house...
first went to shawn darling house... then eat steamboat...
whakaka i first to sit down and eat, last to leave the table... >.<"
then i eat 3 bowl of rice wor...
then go amelia house.... darn full cus at shawn house eat "little" things...
played blackjack, and in between... lol in between i won some $$ wor...

Saturday...
Went to lao shi Mrs Liew house...
haha was fun there...
Mrs Liew say cannot gamble but can play so we take monopoly money and play... then after every round we 'return' each other money so is not gamble lol...
wha mrs liew house got a lot of game wor... like chess game like that de...
the mouse game, guo jin lose! whakaka!

then went to jaz house...
lose like mad... lose $28 wor... tmd...
but their parents are very good lol... very friendly >.<"

then went to the ah pek guo jin house...
didnt dare to bet liao cus lose lol...

Cheers, tml got school le...
see ya~

Posted at
3:36 PM
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Lib's life.
Pika~!

Saturday, February 02, 2008

no mood...

No mood to post currently...

Or should i say, i don't know what is my mood...

Truth hurts... Death lies ahead of everyone... Face it.

Cheers to truth.

Posted at
8:51 PM
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Lib's life.
Pika~!