Tuesday, January 29, 2008

My last obstacle.

Yea...
Again...
Controlled by my own emotions...
My greatest weakness...

but then...
at least this time just an hr to realise it.
Yea...
I will soon never be controlled by emotion again...
I will soon be controlling emotion itself...
I will soon be emotionless again...

My last obstacle...
Feelings...
I shouldn't bother about others anymore...

Yes...
This is the way to end the pain...
Yes...
I rather be alone.

Posted at
11:34 PM
My life.
Lib's life.
Pika~!

Friday, January 25, 2008

Linger...

Whenever I sat here,
your words lingered in my ear...
You said we could never be together,
but still I will love you forever...

What I have is only fear,
fearing that you won't be my dear...
Maybe my love for you is never clear,
but still I will love you forever...
Lib.

Posted at
9:32 PM
My life.
Lib's life.
Pika~!

Thursday, January 24, 2008

Disappointed

Freak... Why am i so useless... darn...

Got my result back today...
Disappointed is all I can say...
I tried hard all the way...
But, i just useless anyway...


Yea...
People may say that i got good result...
but no...
I personally don't think i had a good one...
People just don't understand what i really wanted...

Yes...
I got an A...
But still, it is the second A...
I didn't get the best A...
Yea... A2... i didnt get an A1...

Freak...
People might scold me for being stupid and disappointed even with a distinction...
People might confort me that A2 is already very good...

No...
This isn't my standard at all...
I was so confident in getting an A1...
So confident...

but darn...
i didnt get it...

Yea...
No ones understand how i freaking feel...
You might think i am crazy for being disappointed with an distinction...
Fk you...
You will never know how i feel...
You will never know what in my life i really wanted...

geez...
i still a useless fker in the end...



Posted at
6:57 PM
My life.
Lib's life.
Pika~!

Monday, January 21, 2008

Trusts...

Yea i am back to the question of trust again...
And no...
I won't trust someone else again...
Never...

I trust no one, except my lord and myself...
I trust no others...
No others.

This is my way of life.
NO one will be able to change my life.
No one...
Except for him, my lord.

Dear lord...
I still can't find a reason to live...
Why am i even in this world?
Why do i even exist?

I'll only be happy if i found out this reason...
For now, everything is front of me is nothing...
For now, my world is still empty...

One day i will know why i live in this world...
Why i existed here...

But...
Will this day ever come?
Who knows...

Lib.

Posted at
6:51 PM
My life.
Lib's life.
Pika~!

Sunday, January 20, 2008

Lifes nv different...

Life's never different...
Always the same...
It's getting bored...
That's the reason why...
Living is sufferings...
As... Boredom is the worst sufferings...

The love... That love... Didn't just died off like that.


Friday
School as usual then went to NP open house...
Find masked and his friends... lol i still remember that scorpion head >.<"
lol tuupig masked keep telling me on joining NP cus there got the best course and chio bu lol...
and this even continued til saturday when we met! -.-"

after that went home then go to gj house drink...
ok i didn't drink... i was guai lor! haha
stupid jeremy dead drunk. vomited whole floor... darn...
jx was drink til he really couldn't walk straight...
darn man i hate people who just wanna hao lian their drinking skills then get drunk...
idiots... if you can't drink, don't drink...
isn't that simple?
well this isn't the first time i have people drunk around me...
and... i simply hate it.





saturday
went to lan at parklane our lao di fang again...
just keep on using new heros i nv used before...
but i still won 3/5 rounds haha...
k i was lucky my team was pro ^^

then played Battlefield...
Again commander is my rank ^^
lol...
i just could find any tankers in the second game if not it will already be pure pwnage...

the first game i enter like last 10 mins when they already play like 30 mins but i just got 10 kills lesser then seoti...
power right?
haha

then went to eat...
then went home.
sleep.


Posted at
8:45 PM
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Lib's life.
Pika~!

Thursday, January 17, 2008

sainz...

yesterday have npcc...
stay til quite late cus got cc com...

today didnt went for physic then run home le...
haiz...

feeling darn tired...
tml going NPoly...
the open hs thingy lor...

haiz...

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3:34 PM
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Lib's life.
Pika~!

Sunday, January 13, 2008

Why the hell i even care?

Yea why the hell i even care for them when they don't even bother about themself...
Freak...
Just let them die alone...
I wash my hands out of it...
Since i am not the one affect by the problem...
Who cares anymore...


School are normal...
Well... I feel very slack...
It the first few weeks of the school anyway...
Gonna prepare myself for the chiong...

Mathematics...
Result will be coming out soon...
Either an A1, or i am going to repeat my paper AGAIN this year...
Maths lesson was currently slacking all the way...
Well... not only slacking... I've been doing teachers job... Teaching others...
Crap... Well nevertheless they are still my friends who need my help if not i don't even bother to teach...

Sat Outing.
Lan...
Was fun...
K did a couple of first blood that day >.<"
the person who works there played with us...
and... i did a first blood on him >.<"
lol he said he will remember that and have a revenge >.<" oh noes!



Lifes still goes on...
But still...
It is a matter of time everything comes to an end...
For...
This world is empty...
I wonder how many out there know the same truth of this world with me...
Nothing but sufferings...
Ignorence is bliss...

Lib

Posted at
10:09 PM
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Lib's life.
Pika~!

Tuesday, January 08, 2008

Life sux... i really am going to break down soon...

Why...
Why do i concern so much...
Why...
why am i so controled by my own emotions...

I really wish...
i can become my old self...
Where i'll just bury all my emotions up...
Where i am a person who never acts according to emotion...

Why did i change?
Why...


Friday...
I'm finally officially promoted as a Station inspector...
I'm a hold the name of Sir finally...

And i also realised...
I actually don't really need it...
It just give me to be responsible for more things...


i can't hold myself on much longer...
i really am going to break down...
yes...
i fear...
i am fear of breaking down...
i once broke down...
i don't want that feeling anymore...

i wanna give up...
but i just can't...
i want to this world to end...
but it just can't...

i want back my old self...
Lib.

Posted at
8:07 PM
My life.
Lib's life.
Pika~!

Wednesday, January 02, 2008

School starts...

Well...
Holidays are finally over...
A new year A new start.
Most people would say...
Well not for me...
Nothing is new for me...
This year will gonna be even worst then the previous one...
Yes... My prediciton for this year wont be wrong...


Saturday
Party at fatum's house for club 30...
Was a potluck and BBQ...
My quicky gift for the gift exchange is a pikachu doll...
Darn ex, cost about $30...

The food was nice that day ^^
I love the shedphed pie the most... ^^
And the amount of food is... ENOURMOUS MAN!
haha




Sunday>
Went for Singles Club every sunday Outing... Skating...
Well...
I seriously totally forgot how to skate -.-"
Then Natalie came i switch to cycling...

It rain halfway -.-"
I was all wet lol

Went to eat...
Then to pool...

I won ghost and ah gong... ^^
Well every round won was pure luck haha >.<"



Monday
Morning

Morning went to Happy Forum's outing...
Was late for almost an hour -.-"
Then we went cycling...
Hmm...
Their speed isn't quite suitable for me...
Well...
It is hard to find someone who has the same cycling speed as me...
And i wasn't even sweating where they were already panting and complaining their tired legs...
Well ok al least i got to chiong back alone with a better speed...
ECP isn't a good place for cycling... Too much people to have high speed...

again we played pool ^^

Night, Countdown
I didnt went home after that...
Cus is was pretty late and going home and going back to ECP doesn't sound good...
Then waited for natalie to came... and we went to cabana(think i got the name correct)

No i wasn't drinking much... Yea i dun drink either though haha...
I went on the stage ^^
Stupid host chosen me lol...
Well i won a hamper too... haha
Henry was darn high lol

Then we went to...
Pool again ^^
Yea my combine force with natalie Won!
^^
Natelie pro wor! ^^


Posted at
5:41 PM
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Lib's life.
Pika~!