Friday, May 01, 2009

New blog, new life.

Link me at http://lib-changes.blogspot.com
It's a new life, a bew blog... ^^
People who want me to link, plz leave a message on my tag...
Cheers ^^

Posted at
1:16 AM
My life.
Lib's life.
Pika~!

Monday, April 27, 2009

See me change like Never Before.

Yes...
See how i change...
See how will i endure shits that come along my way this time round...
See how i am gonna cope with such a fuck up schedule even without sleep...
See how am i gonna stay strong on emotion and mentally...

Watch me!
A new phrase of life is about to begins, When EVERY single things change...
Relationships are all different... No matter with friendships, kinships, love, or whatever it is, all has change...
Left my sch school friends, my main group of friends now are my dearest church friends and my smokers sch buddies(Oppss)..
Kinship, been closer with my 2 mei nowadays...
AND! I got a new jie! Although she very busy, and i also very busy which make us almost never have any chance to meet each other, but i know that Jie is still there to cheer me up... I love you Jie!
Love? Ohh well... Finally I really gave up... Really... Just couldn't take it anymore... Though it hurts, but ohh well... I am gonna stay strong...
Education... IT'S POLY NOW! well, nuff said for this.
Jobs and work, Working in NIGHT SAFARI! COOL EH!
BUT BUT WAIT! i am not feeding the animals lah... Working in FnB line in one of the fast food restaurant there called Bongo Burgers ^^

Really have a very tied schedule...
Til i don't have enough time to sleep...
But don't worry, NOTHING is IMPOSSIBLE!
God will help me find a solution or give me the strength to continue!
^^

I am gonna change a new blog too.
Although the link will remain(lib-life.bs), but this blog link will be change and go into hiding...
My new main blog will soon be out...
After i write my blogskin, i will start posting abit and continue editing...

Watch me.
I am a new man now...
For I have my lord walking with me now.
I am reborn!

Cheers to the new pika~!

Posted at
7:26 PM
My life.
Lib's life.
Pika~!

Saturday, March 21, 2009

A decision on 19th march...

Yes...
I have made a decision already...
Since you kap my phone down that time...
Which immediately killed the old heart i have...
Which broke the promise we made never to kap each other phone...

Since you kap that phone...
I know it's all over...
And you are no longer the one i know anymore, that you change into someone else already...

Go then...
Go...
Go live your princess life with your prince...
Never...
Find this pauper again...

You are not the one I love anymore...
Who I love is already gone...
She is gone... And not there for me anymore...

For me to choose finally walk with god...
You should know how significant it is...
For I trust no one...
But I have finally trust someone now... My lord...
All because...
Something has happen between me and god...
That let me really felt his presense...

The last gift i want to gift to you, is to actually bring you to church...
But i guess... I couldn't anymore...

I don't want either party to get hurt anymore...
Just move on bah...
And let this be the last hurt...
We already knew from the start...
We were never meant to be...
We tried hard enough...
and we both is tired now...
Yes we were never meant to be...
True love won't get tired when they face new problems...
But we did get tired...
Especially you...

Just let go...
And walk another path...
I have choosen to walk my path with god...
To go to his kingdom...

Forget me...
Go find your true love...
A love whereby when problems comes you doesn't fear...
A love whereby you never get tired of both the good times and bad times...
A love that is a real eternity for you...
We were never meant to be...
I am never your right one...

Goodbye...
I am ending here...
Will miss you... Always...
I have already let go...

Posted at
1:02 PM
My life.
Lib's life.
Pika~!

Wednesday, March 11, 2009

Tears

manage to get a proper sleep for the first time after so long... a full 8 hrs sleep...
then woke up...
went to combine cell group meeting with xueting...
thanks everyone for you concern...
i appreciate it a lot...
i know... you guys are my just like my family...
but...
i dun even share anything with my family about what happen to me...
sorry for keeping quiet and not sharing what is happening to me...
but that's just me...

i've been walking closer and closer with god...
i have saw his words for me...
He told me to be responsible for this...
For this ending is created by me...
Be responsible that you can't take care of her... So let her go...
Also...
He told me no one is without a sin in this world...
He told me i have no rights to condemn her that she left me for another guy...
For me myself have sins in other area...
And he told me too, he himself did not condemn anyone... Neither her or me...

He too told me...
If you really love her...
Forgive her...

I dunno what he told me are just concidience that happen...
Or is he really talking to me...
But i really felt that this time...
It's too much to be called concidience...

When i was praying just now at the cell group meeting at church...
I was praying for her all the way...

Dear lord...
There is no more chances that i will going to take care of her...
Dear lord...
I place her life into your hand...
Dear lord...
Please protect her for me...
Dear lord...
Give her happiness... Give her peace... Give her love...
I have walk away from her life...
All i can do now is to pray for her...
And place her under you care...
Dear lord...
Give her a shelter if she is seeking one...
Give her a tower of refuge if she wanted to hide...
Give her peace is she if her heart is heavy...
Help me to protect her lord...
Amen.

I promise her to stay strong...
I have always stay strong today...
I manage to force myself to smile all the way when people talk to me...
But maybe... A force smile and a real smile is just too different...
Everyone just know that my smile is a fake smile...
jasmine, my bible study teacher, and xueting pull me oneside in the church hall...
and they told me...
to stop smiling...
cus they feel the hurt in me...
and keep asking me to speak to them and tell them what happen...
i manage to stay strong and keep smiling and saying nothing has happen i am fine...
but after they said something to me...
"there is a time to stay strong... and there is a time to realease and show your weaker self... we are one family... weichong, we are your sisters, we love you... we really wanted to know what has happen to you..."
tears just falls...
i know i couldn't control anymore...
i really can't take that hurt inside me...
i am really bursting soon...
but they burst it for me...
i burst into tears...
but still...
i tried to stay strong...
to smile even when i am crying...
for never have i ever... cried in front of so many people...
never have i...
cry in the public full of people that know me...
but i still kept quiet...
and they still dunno what has happen...

thanks xueting for treating me to eat again...
still remember that day you just force me to walk out of the house and treat me eat... the sunflower you gave me, i've hang it on my bag le ^^

To my dearest one and only...
I just want to tell you that...
I am living strongly...
Thanks for coming into my life...
You are still the greatest gift god ever gave me...
someone ask me... if you know this would happen... will you still want her or not...
i tell them...
i have no regrets...
the days of happiness we once shared... can't compare to this pain...
a day more of happiness we shared together... it worth more then a year of pains...
i have never regreted... that i have met you...
my dearest...
it's ok...
live you life happilly if you can...
i will too...
my dearest...
i have forgiven everything that you did to hurt me...
but my dearest...
will you forgive me...
i am sorry...
there is one last thing i wanna give you...
i want to meet you once last time...
to give you something...
most precious in my life...
really wish to see you one last time...
and give you this gift...
goodbye...

Posted at
5:59 AM
My life.
Lib's life.
Pika~!

Thursday, January 15, 2009

for personal easy reference not a post...

NP

- build enviroment
N47 11 civil and environmental 21

- Engineering
N43 5 electrical engineering 24
n44 3 electronic and computer engineering 22
n41 2 mechanical engineering 23
n50 6 mechatronic engineering 23

- infomation technology
n81 7 financial informatic 16
n54 1 information technology 17

SP

-Engineering
s53 10 computer engineering 19
s99 9 electrical and electronic engineering 17

- information technology
s82 4 information technology 17

- build enviroment
s95 8 Property Development and facilities management 17

Posted at
3:40 AM
My life.
Lib's life.
Pika~!

Tuesday, January 06, 2009

My new room layout...

yea... i change my room layout... room seems more spacious now...
i still remember... that time... me and her was moving around the furniture too...
today... i am moving them around alone...
was just so sad...
was crying while moving the furniture around...
maybe...
you will never have the chances to see it with your own eye as you might never want to step in this house again...
pictures are below...
click on them for bigger view...




at my computer area...




at my window area...




my bed... decided to put the bed on that thing instead of just on the floor... seems more neat this way... since i am sleeping alone from now onwards too...





after i remove the carboard or whatever it is call, i found a lot of nails behind it...
then i decided to put the heart the bear and our ring on it...
lol

Posted at
6:07 AM
My life.
Lib's life.
Pika~!

Sunday, January 04, 2009

My dearest Jie...

Haiz...
was chatting with xueting on msn...
then suddenly talk about memories...
then i remember...
i started to kept memories because of one person...

I started to miss my old jie a lot...
And i know...
Once lost... it's never gonna come back...
all she left me...
is her memories...

I haven been really crying alone for sometime... always controlling my tears and only let it fall but no real crying...
today...
just i think of jie...
i just cry...
just cry...
like that day she told me she was leaving for aust...
i just cry... i just miss her so much...

Jie...
I miss you...
Though things are different one... And you will never come back...
I really miss you...
A lot...

Posted at
3:25 AM
My life.
Lib's life.
Pika~!

Tuesday, December 16, 2008

sainz...

haiz so sainz... sainz T.T

Posted at
5:24 PM
My life.
Lib's life.
Pika~!

Friday, November 28, 2008

campfires burning...

Camp fires burning
camp fires burning
draw nearer
draw nearer
in the glooming
in the glooming come sing and be merry...

camp fires burning now
camp fires burning now
burning now (burn! burn! burn!)
burning now (burn! burn! burn!)

camp fires burning now
camp fires burning now
burning now (burn! burn! burn!)
burning now (burn! burn! burn!)

camp fires burning in the dark dark night~
woo yea~
Yippe yippee yea~

hope that...
tonight... the camp fire...
will burn away all my sorrows...

anyway...
BBQ TIME!
i kinda hungry le argh...

Posted at
5:05 PM
My life.
Lib's life.
Pika~!

Thursday, November 20, 2008

Difference between eating and smoking...

Food tastes terrible when you are sad...
However, ciggs taste so aroma when you are sad...

Today...
Me and baby went to kfc in the moring eat their breakfast...
I eat til full full >.<"
then... we rent the disc i long wanted to see, the leap years...
then, we share a cup noodles...
then... we went to eat kfc again ^^

today only consist of eating, no smoking...

baby went home le...
then we chat in msn...
she feel asleep -.-"

then... jovan ps me -.-"
i went down to buy a cigg... my mouth just very itchy lah today...
i smoke...
and...
it's felt horrible today...
lol

eat one packet of rice again...
i stole 2 bread from mummy table already...
i ate one packet of instant noodle already... (sorry baby but midnite really no other food to eat liao, and i got eat rice and the kfc lor... so this maggie is extra de ^^)
drink a cup of milo already...
and i still feel fucking hungry now...
lol
maybe... thats why... food and ciggs are important to me at different time ^^

what should i eat now?
gosh...
i am growing fatter soon lol
*slurp*
just wanna eat...
lol

wha how much have i eat in one day sia...

today...
Welcome our 2 new moderators of Singles Club ^^
Detached and MaskedAngel
haha
Detached thank you speech so long lol

Well...
Singles club gonna rise...
With detached, and me coming back from O lvl, it shall rise and rise! hehe
Cheers to SC~!

Posted at
5:53 AM
My life.
Lib's life.
Pika~!